The early cat saves the worm!

ch.4 a

2011-01-11T17:44:00.000-08:00

This next chapter starts out with the story of a gay man offering a christian (Rich Mullins) a ride to a camp while he was on a long hike. After riding for awhile, the gay man told Rich that he was gay, and Rich told him that he was a christian. And than began to tell him the gospel. He explained to his own surprise that you dont go to hell for being gay, any more than you go to hell for being a liar, a racist, or a thief. You go to hell because your rejecting Jesus free gift (A lot of this is taken right from the book) of grace that is sufficient for alllllll sins! Im hitting this head on. I had the blessing of meeting a young man named Isaac Peterson! Hes a drug dealer, he commited arm robbery, he slashed a guys face with a blade. But hes got a great heart!!! He was only trying to survive. Hes from the bronx, hes hurting, in jail. He tried to kill himself. After hearing the story, someone that I love a lot overheard me talking to a friend about him. As I declared hes a good guy, this person declared, how can he be a good guy? Hes a drug dealer! That angered me, I guess the true answer is that none of us are "good guys" like Isaac, and this unnamed gay guy, we are sinners. Sinners that God died for! Your past, present, and future sins have been paid for! God loves you! God can declare you righteous and holy, set apart for Him by His blood. All you need to do is accept Jesus as your savior and repent in true belief!

This next part talked about how sins have so much power when we keep them in the dark. God knows this of course, and His word talks about it in James 5:16.

" Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective."

See we all struggle with some type of sin! We are not alone in our failures! God knows your failures, and loves you anyway! And if we bring our sins out in the open to mature brothers and sisters in Christ, it will be an amazing blessing to you! There is freedom when we confess to God, and those we trust. A group of people in the ministry got together for the sole purpose of having a private time of confession. NOT FOR THE FORGIVENESS OF SINS!!! God forgives, and you confess DIRECTLY to Him, please dont get me wrong on that. But in the book after the meeting, this is what the author James Smith had to say. "Our faces looked different after that time. They shined. Later that night I thought about how all of us-literally all of us- struggle with sin. One thing was strange: even though I could remember their faces, I could not remember their sins. I suppose God couldnt either." What an awesome thought! God is truly forgiving, He truly throws our repented sins as far as the east is from the west. Its gone, His love sets us free :-)

ch.3 cont'd

2010-12-04T13:32:00.000-08:00

On page 46 its talking about what Gods love is like. And one of the lines is amazingly encouraging to me. Sometimes I doubt myself. But God knows He made me fearfully and wonderfully with amazing care. He knows if I give my all to Him what I could be in Him! "God hopes and believes- He sees our potential even when we doubt and despair of ourselves." Hes basing this off of 1 Corinthians 13:4-8.

I find this very exciting!!! "If God is this way with us, then as extensions of His life in us, we, too, can offer this kind of love to those around us." :-) Thats awesome!

Angie :-) I know your reading, this is one you highlighted that I agree is a very cool quote! "The branch is able to bear the fruit because it is attached to the vine, not because of its effort." It feels so good to be attached to the vine!

"It is not we who love, but it is God who loves them in us. Jesus is the vine, and we are merely the branches. (talking about John 15:5) Apart from Him we can not love"

This is a good thought "A large part of acceptance is letting people be who they are, with all of their uniqueness, all of their beauty, all of their flaws."
-Im so thankful for the people in my life who accept me like this!!! They have had the most impact in my life. Its obvious why, we need to treat others like this!

"I do not want my brothers and sisters to excuse my sin...to accept me as I am, and than leave me as I am is not love, but apathy."
-Just an interesting thought. reminds me of another quote. "A true friend stabs you in the front." Sometimes we need to grow, and we will not grow if we are not confronted when we are sinning without repentance! Sometimes the Holy Spirit is that true friend who steps in and convicts you. Sometimes God wants to use each other, to lovingly confront one another.

"⁷ But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us." 2 Corinthians 4:7 Great picture! I liked this verse, he brings it up at the end of the chapter :-)

"We may not feel like we have the capacity to accept one another unconditionally. We are right. We do not have the ability to love as God loves. But thank God we do not have to conjure up this kind of acceptance. All we have to do is carry Gods acceptance to the people around us."

(I apologize, this has been a loooooonnnnnnggggg break. But Im excited for the next part of the book :-) Its titled Receiving God's forgiveness!

ch. 3

2010-11-22T13:36:00.000-08:00

- Chapter 3 starts off with a story about a lady the author knew as a young kid. He was friends with the ladies boys who he had hung out with all the time. After 10 years of them not talking with him or his parents, she called looking for his mom. She told him that her son had passed away after fighting aids recently. He wondered why after all this time of not talking she would try to call his mom. And the lady said "I just needed to talk to your mom. She was always so accepting. No matter what happens I know I can always call her and she will stand by me. I love your mom so much."

I think thats awesome that because his mom always showed love NO MATTER WHAT, even after ten years she still loved his mother, and knew she could still go to her. She went through hoops to find her. Thats the type of impact we can make on people when we show them Gods love!!! She could actually be honest with her, and I think its awesome! Cause we can always be honest with God :-)

Unfortunately I do have to get my brother to a guitar lesson, I will finish this soon!

ch.2b

2010-11-17T13:24:00.000-08:00

- I actually have a question. I was wondering what people thought of 1 John 3:19-21. Its referenced in the book.

- "We may feel deep shame, and we may condemn ourselves unmercifully, but God does not. And if God does not condemn us, than who are we to condemn ourselves."

- "Angels can fly because they take themselves lightly." I think thats an amazing statement. At first I was thinking, well... thats just a fun little saying that makes you smile cause its kinda cute. But than I thought about it a little more. If we would just get over ourselves, focus completely on Gods strength and what we could be through Him. And not what our actions make us appear to be, we could "fly high." :-)

- "We have already been accepted by the One whos acceptance really matters." I do believe that statement. It is only Gods acceptance that we need. My struggle is that I want to be accepted and loved by a young lady, whomever God would choose to bless me with. That gets in my head, and sometimes I want that more than I want to follow God. And thats not right. So thats just a prayer request! Please pray that following God would be my one focus, and not the other.

Embracing the love of God notes ch.2

2010-11-16T13:39:00.000-08:00

-"We are not what we do...but rather, we are who God says we are."

That is something that I struggle with. God says I'm fearfully and wonderfully made. And sometimes I believe Him, and sometimes if I'm honest, I don't. But it is a relief to know that no matter how bad we mess up... in Gods eyes we are still righteous based on Jesus' blood. We are still people of such potential to do mighty things through the power of the Holy Spirit. I struggle to cling to this and live that way. Happy with who I am. But ya know, God can work in my heart. And if you struggle with the same thing, He can work in yours as well!

-"we want so badly to think well of ourselves, not knowing that the answer to our struggle is to let go of the need to feel important."

- St. Francis of Assisi was asked how he could say he was the worst of all sinners when he was such a moral, well to do man. His reply "If God had blessed them with such great mercy as He has blessed me, they would acknowledge Gods gifts much more than I do, and serve Him better than I do, and if my God would abandon me I would commit more misdeeds than any other man."

I thought that was an interesting reply. I love the honesty in his answer!

- "The truth that we must accept if we are to be healed is the truth that we are weak and broken and imperfect, for that is who we are."

Thats why we need our amazing Savior! We can't really do anything good on our own without Him :-)

-Dietrich Bonhoeffer "It is the grace of the gospel which is so hard for the pious to understand, that it confronts us with the truth and says: You are a sinner, a great and desperate sinner; now come, as the sinner that you are, to God who loves you. He wants you as you are; He does not want anything from you, a sacrifice, a work; He wants you alone. My son, give me thine heart (Proverbs 23:26). God has come to you to save the sinner. Be glad! This message is liberation through truth.... You do not have to go on lying to yourself and your brothers, as if you were without sin; you can dare to be a sinner."

That last part should not be understood as its ok to sin... but that its ok that you are not perfect! God knows you are not perfect. He knows I for sure am not perfect. But He loves you and I very much regardless. And we can rejoice that though we are a sinner, and we know were a sinner, we don't have to hide it. We are loved anyways :-) What a sweet sweet God we serve!

There is more to chapter two that I will post later. I'm exhausted. But I hope this is a blessing and encouragement to whoever reads it. I'm glad to post it, its a good way for me to take notes, and share it at the same time :-) "I am weak, but He is strong!"

Embracing the love of God notes

2010-11-11T15:28:00.000-08:00

chapter 1:
pg. 13 he quotes 1 John 4:10 "¹⁰In this is love, not that we have loved God but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins." Than he makes this awesome comment. "Even when I was far and distant from God, God loved me first. Even when I was unbelieving and angry with God, God loved me first. Even when I was serving a false God, God loved me first." I thought that was awesome. No matter what we have done, or will do, God knew it all, and still He loved us first! :-)

Theres so many good quotes and thoughts in this book by James Bryan Smith, Unfortunately I cant quote them all, but this is an excerpt from a prayer that James had found. "...When I withdraw from the distractions of the day and turn my soul toward You, You are there first and thus forever. And we speak ungratefully as if You have loved us first only once." I would encourage you guys to pick this book up, or borrow it as I am so that you may read all of it.

This is cool, he begins to talk about creation. And how in creation, Gods love is shown. But he quotes G.K. Chesterson who made a great point. Scientists like to talk about all these laws of nature. But he claims there is no laws of nature :-P Its cool, check it out "He pointed out that nature is not a system of necessity. Yes, the sun will probably come up tomorrow, but it need not. Perhaps each day God says to the sun, "Arise! Go forth!" Yes grass is typically green, but it need not be. God could make it purple if He wished. There are no "laws" of nature. God can do whatever He wishes. Frogs jump and birds fly and water flows down hill. Not because of "laws," but because God wishes them to do so. He notes, "It is not a necessity, for though we can count on it practically, we have no right to say that it must always happen." " (pg.15)

this quote is hard core in the awesomeness category!!! "...I have never used anyone but sinners to share my good news, and I have never had it preached to anyone but sinners. The message is not about you, it is about me." (pg.20)

"I thought of God's acceptance as something I could lose by my behavior. It was not logical for me to think this, since I did not do anything to gain Gods acceptance in the first place. How can we lose something that we did not earn?" (pg. 21)

And chapter 1 ends with this sweet prayer! If you are reading these notes and my favorite parts of chapter one. Please pray this prayer for me, as well as yourself. "Dearest Lord, let your holy love possess me wholly."

Drumming and praying through songs of lifes lessons

2010-05-23T12:14:00.001-07:00

As I sit at my drum set, Ill start to mess around, and than slow it down. And than I begin to sing out... no prewritten songs, nothing, just whats on my heart. And as I prayed to God through song, I began to think on things. Why did God say no?

Im learning that God says no to some very good things. Things that are a blessing, people even. And that hurts. But though He shuts the door, He does not leave us to wallow in the pain. He reminds us of how great His love is. And He continues to bless me with this person... even though its not going to go as I wanted it to. He gently keeps me reminded that He knows a whole lot more than Ill ever know. And that He loves us, and has a perfect plan. That even though it hurts, He's working in a positive way. And that is indeed a blessing and a half! When God shuts a door that I would LOVE to have open, He gives me a drum set to get my focus off the problem and what could be. Not just for me, but for the other person too. God has got big big big plans and I still get to see them unfold :-)

Ill stay with my "God of this city theme," and say again, "there is no one like our God!"

2010-05-19T14:17:00.001-07:00

So today, was definitely pretty cool. Had a hard talk with my sister and brother in law, smacking me with reality. Helping me to get my butt in gear. And on my way to my parents house to print an application for Pinnacle, I stopped at mobile to get an application there to hold me over till camp would start (should I get accepted to work there this summer). And I didnt see a safe place to stick my application where it wouldnt get all wrinkled in my car. So I asked God to keep it safe. And as I was on the road, I happened to look over, and seen my paper had slipped down into the crack between my seat and the change holder thingy!!! It was now perfectly safe from any devastation that could occur :-P Does God care about even the little things??? I think so :-)

2010-05-17T09:44:00.000-07:00

This morning I received news that kind of hurt and definitely brought tears. Last night was an amazing night where God was definitely working in mine and Jessica's heart. Mine for my father, and at the time, I didn't know what Jess was thinking. I knew she was hurting and something was deeply affecting her. Well anyways, during Unplugged, with praise music playing, and than a challenge brought. We were both crying and she pulled me in, and we rested our heads on each other for comfort. We prayed together, and talked a bit about things. And she wouldn't say what was on her heart. So I did everything I could to encourage her, and with a big hug we parted ways and went home. Encouraging her to follow Gods will, and to be encouraged in leaving home if she felt thats where she needs to go. See Gods will, no matter where it is, and how painful it may be at first, is the best place to be! Gods will holds the greatest treasures for her. And she will be blessed greatly for following Him, our Father that we love dearly! And little did I know, that I was encouraging her to not be in a relationship with me... It hurt. And I seen how it hurt her too. Please pray for Jess!!! God has HUMONGOUS plans for her!!!!! Oh my goodness, I cant wait to see her grow more. To see where God takes her! I love that girl to death, and shes now just my sister in Christ for sure.

Gods mercy

2010-02-22T19:08:00.000-08:00

Ive got a praise! God is so good. Saturday was a great time of fellowship! And Sunday morning during praise I was hit with a great appreciation for Gods mercy, when I dont deserve it. When I fall, no matter how bad it is, He loves me no less!!! What an awesome and loving God we serve!!!! Just sayin ;-)

2010-01-27T05:10:00.000-08:00

Bored with a lot on my mind.
People, work, ministry...
conclusions I can not find!

I seek and seek some more,
thoughts pass through...
but quickly hit the floor.

I don't see my dreams as a possibility.
my character, flaws, and sins...
they rob me of believability!

I know its a lie, a trick, a scheme.
The deceivers at my door...
God, he seems so supreme!

But thank you my Lord!
My Shepherd, Father, King!
Your kingdom will be restored!

To You be the glory!
Only You are worthy!
To be the Hero at the end of the story!

When dirts kicked up

2009-12-27T22:20:00.000-08:00

I have to say, I get competitive when it comes to games and sports. While playing Pictionairy tonight, war broke out. I felt like one of my friends was egging me on. Pushing my buttons on purpose, and as I would get frustrated, I began to yell. I'm not perfect, I try hard to keep a good character. I try to have integrity, and patience. But I'm easily set off when I'm misunderstood, or I don't understand others, or people challenge my character... even when I try my best to be the best I can. Fingers were all pointed at me and my friend Shannon because we were both frustrated at things that were going down in the game. And that angered me even more because I felt like it wasn't fair. We get scolded for showing our frustrations, while the instigator is set free. I was wrong, we talked it out, and were not mad at each other. But I have to wonder, is my image ruined? I'm so glad that when they seen my faults, and my anger coming out... That when all was said and done, they still accept me. But its not cool that I'm so easily pushed to... I guess anger. But its more stress that comes out wrong. Maybe that's exactly what anger is. But I wonder how many friends and people, could see the way I act at my worse and still love me. Still be willing to play a board/card game, knowing I could go off. I feel kind of dirty, I guess I'm lucky that Jesus blood can wash it away. That His love is great, and if I were to die tonight, Id still be welcomed in His home. I'm not perfect, and I feel like people expect me to be... probably because of the way I try to carry myself. I yell, I sin, I'm messed up. But God uses the weak, the broken, the warn down. But I really wanna know, when all is said and done, who would stand by me?

2009-12-23T08:55:00.000-08:00

I got to say, the beginning of last week was rough! I was worried that I had lost a friend. But God is amazingly good!!! The people that are in my life are such an amazing blessing!!! They always show me love, and I praise God for them. Going to God, He brought peace. The situation is still not figured out, I still may have lost my friend, but the fear is gone. Ive had such an amazing last week! And I have a lot to look forward to. Good people, good movies, parties, and food. And yes a much greater and epicly amazing, Heavenly Father :-) Praise be to Him!

2009-10-22T00:22:00.000-07:00

Ive had a lot on my mind lately. Im struggling. I havent had a job for awhile now. Thats not even what bugs me. What really bugs me is I have no idea what to do. Where am I supposed to go? I want to go back to school...but I have no idea what I want to do, at all. I dont have a lot of passions, nothing to really show me, or give me an idea. With these thoughts baring down on me, I began to feel like more of a failure than ever before. And because of this I think things out way to much, read into things that arent true. Ive been getting frustrated over little things.
But I am thankful, God does bring comfort when I go to Him. I struggle to do it sometimes, but no doubt, Hes right there. Im thankful for His creation. Because its beautiful, its a place I can go and be one on one with my maker. Im thankful for friends that stick with me through this time. Im so sorry if Ive added stress. I am thankful because though Im honestly not liking life, I can still love life because of God. I had a neighbor when we were younger. I still lived in Colonie so I was probably in 2nd grade or so. She was an older lady, and she was one of the nicest people. But her grandaughter did something wrong. So Mrs. Clow punished her. And her grandaughter looked up, and said something along the lines of "Grandma, you dont love me any more?" Mrs. Clow replied "Honey, I dont like you right now, but Ill always love you." Now thats a pretty honest answer. But its a good one. I dont like my current position in life, I dont like my circumstances. But I love the fact that my Savior loves me, and "He will make a way where there seems to be no way!" He promises that there is a reason for all that we go through. If there wasnt, than He would use it anyways! He doesnt let any hurts go to waste. I love that there is hope. I love the blessings even in the hard times. Whether its hearing a friends voice, or watching a bird fly, and land in the cold water. It amazes me that they can still swim in the river and be ok. Even a little frog, hopping in front of me while Im working, it makes me smile. I love music, I love sports. I love college group, hopefully it will be named barf and gag. lol, Praise God for good times. Ive got to work on this one. But for real, praise God for the bad times. Lord it helps me grow, so thank you! I need to decide to cling to the good, and give Him the bad. I need to remember, that He is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords, and He is soooooooooooooooooooooooo good at it! He is perfect! What a mighty and wonderful God we serve!

One brick, two brick, dark brick, light brick

2009-09-07T14:18:00.000-07:00

There's so many things that I would love to post. But it would be a whole series, and I'm sure it would bore you to death :-P so Ill spare you, and tell you one story at a time.

I was at work last week, and in the beginning I had to go through old bricks, and find ones that could be reused. As I'm going through the bricks, I noticed that a lot of them, having been holding up the house sense 1790, were cracked and weathered. But here's the weird thing. I would see some bricks that I deemed unworthy to be used at first. "The crack is to big, or the light color shows weakness." Id say based on what I was told. But as I would hit the brick to actually test its strength, it passed. It wouldn't break.

However, there were other bricks, that I would have bet my sour patch kids :-P that it would have passed. It was dark colored, and not even the slightest of cracks on the outside. And with one hit, it shattered. I'm so glad to have been able to do the job, though it hurt my back. It was a blessing, and I hope it blesses any readers.

See I thought it was a perfect picture. There are many people that seem broken, perhaps when we look at them, we may think... this person cant be used. This person is no good. Perhaps, you look at yourself, and you come to that same conclusion. I'm to old, or to broken down, I'm worn out, not strong enough. You begin to buy into the lie, and you feel useless. But that is far from the truth!!!!!! When God is allowing the hammer to crash down, you will pass with flying colors in the end (should you give it all to Him). You, or the people that you see, no matter how they are now. Whether their bitter and angry, prideful and selfish, whatever you may see, that's only because they most likely don't know God, or are struggling with (truly, only God knows what), and they need His love. God can use each of us to build back up a wall, that makes His house, His bride come together!

Some people appear strong, and you look at them, without a doubt you say, "their so perfect, they have it all together!" When really, inside their so weak, and ready to crumble.

Whether, your the first, or the second "brick" we can all take peace. I recently read Psalms 27. I would highly recommend reading it! Heres some verses that stuck out to me:

Lets start right off with the first verse! "The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom Shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?"

Even David, the King of Israel, knew where he stood. He knew even as a shepherd boy when he took out Goliath, that it was God. He knew that he really didn't half to fear anyone! He continues through to verse three:
"...Though an army may encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war may rise against me, in this I will be confident."

David is but one man, and he knew he could stand against a whole army, he knew that his God, his Father, his Shepherd (I like that, Gods a Shepherd's shepherd :-) was watching over Him. Gods a King's King to!!! Sorry, that's really cool to me, but anyways :-P We can stand strong no matter who or what our enemy is. We can be bold and confident, for we do not fight on our own! God is our strength. The only way we can fail, is when we try to take the enemy out on our own!!!

Next is verse 5:

"For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion; In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock."

Gods love is so amazing, and He can shelter us and give us rest in the secret place :-) "What a mighty God we serve, what a Mighty God we serve! Angels bow before Him, Heaven and Earth adore Him! What a Mighty God we serve!" And with all of His might, that endless fountain, also pours out peace and protection :-)

I came down to an interesting verse, vs.8:

"When You said, "seek my face," My heart said to you, "Your face Lord, I will seek."

I love it so much. And I'm in tears, because its sheer awesomeness. I know that Ive failed to seek Him so often. But God is so amazing, and He simply says, after all the failure "seek my face," that's all... We just have to seek Him :-) And what a joy and privilege it is to do so, to be allowed to!!! Praise God for His love and mercy! For His Word that has such joyful news in it!!!

The next verse, of course, does not fall short of sweet goodness :-) There seems to be an endless supply!!! Can I get a woot WOOT!!!! :-P Verse 10:

"When my father and my mother forsake me, Than the Lord will take care of me."

People will fail you, no ones perfect! But no matter what happens, when no one else is there, God still remains! Ready to take you in His arms, and be your support :-).

Now we come to the conclusion of this Psalm vs. 13-14:

"I would have lost heart, unless I had believed. That I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!"

One of the hardest things to do, is to wait on Gods timing! To continue through the hard times, wondering when it will be over. But we are reminded and reassured of hope in the future. Look to God, and you will be strengthened. Don't look at yourself, the circumstances around you, just keep your eyes on Him :-) Rest assured, you are safe!

As a final and short note, I promise! Pastor preached a great message with a great illustration on Sunday. Its the final message in the "Inside out living" series. Please check it out at sonrisebible.org Its a goodie, and definitely encouraging! I apologize, its not up yet, but I encourage you to keep checking. The whole series was pretty good. And the first message is posted. I hope you are blessed by it!

2009-08-14T03:20:00.000-07:00

Soooooo its been awhile. Ive been missing Bible Study, but Dan is back, so hopefully soon it will be starting up again :-) It was cool hanging out with Dan the other day. Went out for ice cream and than got Nichole and Shannon, and all of us went to see a movie. Than back for ice cream where Dan got soaked, Shannon was soaked and got stabbed with an ice cream cone. I went to defend Nichole, and got splattered with ice cream and milkshake, it was a mess! But good times. No worries, we removed all of the evidence :-P

Started my new job this week. Fell through a floor, but luckily my leg caught the joist. It hurt, but praise God, if I had gone all the way through, it could have been much worse. Its a good sized drop into a cement floor. But where Im working is an ooooollllldddd beat up house from 1790 that sits on a beautiful piece of property! The picture doesnt do it justice.

I was tearing down a wall, and as part of it fell, I thought it was pretty sweet! It was pretty much a perfect cross. So I leaned it against the wall

2009-06-10T14:52:00.001-07:00

I am so glad for answered prayers!!! :-)

2009-06-03T03:24:00.000-07:00

Somebody want to build me a time machine??? I want so much to go back in time, and be Daniel's student/disciple type person!!! Going through the book of Daniel has been a great blessing, and you see what an amazing man of God that he was. No matter what happens, he is head strong, steadfast ALWAYS following God. Wicked, devious men tried to find fault in him... and literally could find nothing. All they could do was to trick the king into making a law against worshiping any god but the king. And without really thinking, the king agreed. They knew Daniel would continue to follow God. Daniel faced death multiple times, still didn't waver with outstanding faith. He got real sick, the very day he got better the Bible says he continued to follow God. He got sick because of a crazy vision that he had from God, and Gabriel explaining it (HE GOT TO MEET GABRIEL!!!)... He didn't waver for one second. I want to meet him, ask him how he did it day in and day out with what seems to be no hesitation, and no fault. I want to be like him.

God is awesome, Im thankful for the heroes that He provides, that are WAY better than the heroes of today. Im thankful for His word. Definitely His creation! God thank you!!!

2009-05-23T08:08:00.000-07:00

Still recovering from being sick, but God is good. While being sick, I was reminded of how weak we really are. How little we can handle. How much we truly need our Heavenly Father! It was the first time Ive thrown up in years, and after 8 hours of it, it finally slowed down. But it reminds me of the blessing of good health. It reminded me of what an awesome family I have. My little brother offered to clean the nastiness up, lol, I told him its ok to go back to bed. But just the offer meant a lot. My mom is definitely very mom like :-P and took good care of me :-P. At least today I was able to eat a full pop tart. The best part was knowing that God was right there, and He loves me. Such an undeserved love. His love is not determined by our circumstances. Its a good lesson, because not to long ago I broke down. I was so confused. Ive been constantly praying for so long for a couple friends ;-), and nothing seems to be changing for them. I love them so much, and I know that God loves them even more! So why wont He change their circumstances. He has the power! Than a long time friend reminded me that God will never give them more than they can handle! And perhaps Hes preparing them for the future. Or perhaps, so they can help others who are going through the same things! God is good, and He sees the big picture, that we can not see! When all is said and done, they will be wiser and stronger because of it! They can look back and see what God was doing all that time. All the tears will not be wasted, you are loved to much for that! God's listening, He hears your cries. Remember, my ears are still open as well. For anyone that needs it!

2009-05-14T15:50:00.000-07:00

Ya know God is truly unbelievable and amazing!!! The last couple days Ive gotten the chance to work at a place called copperfield inn! Its literally on the same road that you would take to go to Gore. In fact, we turned the wrong way, and seen the ski lifts over the mountain, coming down. The ride up is trees, beautiful beautiful trees, including my favorite, Birch! Its rivers and streams!!! I LOVE running water, its one of my favorite of Gods awesome creation!!! Rivers, oceans, lakes even, streams and creaks, and definitely waterfalls!!! Its amazing! Anywho, the inn is beautiful as well!!! You go inside and the setting is at first a fancy rich people type feel :-P. But you go around, and theres a very rustic outdoorsy feel as well! The furniture, the lanterns, the bar is amazing!!!! I dont condone drinking, but it was a very very beautiful room and setup they have in there. Theres a fire place, with the bar stools made with branches! The chandaleir is made of antlers, and theres a huge mirror with there sign (a moose). At each of the tables in a little sit down room they must have for people who dont want to go in the bar, is a book. Which at a down time I picked up to read a little bit. It was pretty interesting. About a trapper, so while waiting for your food and drinks, you can read a humorous yet very sweet book about a certain moose, and a certain trapper. I thought that was very unique and a good idea. However when you get to the attic, it becomes a very tight and uninviting place to be. This is where most of our day was spent. I have to say, I actually enjoyed it, despite this fact. You had to climb, duck, and crawl (sometimes on your stomach) through a maze of plywood, 2X4's, insulation, pipes, and vents! I got to play the part of a monkey, one of the small energetic kinds :-P. The first day up there, I stood up to soon, as I was walking quite fast. Slammed my head into a random piece of wood, and it blurred my vision, for a second! Yet thankfully the pain went away rapidly, and all vision was restored in an instant. Praise God for a hard head! I happened to hit right where youd want to headbutt a soccer ball. I was lucky. God is watching, Im tellin ya :-P. However today, I will be honest. The manly man that I am, I almost cried :-P. I once again tried to stand up, and there was a sheet of plywood above my head. Not as lucky, I hit in the back center of my head, and it stunned me. It hurt soooooo bad at first, and my eyes watered up a ton! LISTEN TO THIS!!!! Because my eyes watered, whatever it was that got into my eye and hurt like crazy, is no longer there!!! And after about a minute, again, there was no pain, there was no headache. I praise God so much for the hard head that I was given. For the nature that He created!!! That I had the priviledge of enjoying it greatly! Even in the rain, it was a beautiful day. No doubt, do we serve a mighty, loving creator. May all the glory go to Him!!! Through the good and the bad, He deserves praise!

sadness and goodness

2009-05-07T03:01:00.001-07:00

yesterday on lunch break I called my good friends the Housts! This is actually kinda crazy, cause I dont usually if ever call on weekdays, and try to do something. Because of work. But I got a weird urge to play a sweet game called quiddler. Nichole picks up and says she probably wont play, and starts to cry. They lost their dog Molly yesterday! What a sweet dog to, and she was loved dearly! But my job is pretty laid back, and they allowed me to head home early so I could be there for them! Im so glad I had the oppurtunity. There was a small amount of tears, but good times as well! Please keep them in prayer, they are an awesome family!!! And this was very sudden! Their currently looking for a new dog.

Praise God for good people :-)

2009-04-25T05:08:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time, no doubt! And it was definitely uncalled for :-P. So life, lol, life is good! My job is awesome! Anywhere where your able to witness every day, read people parts of the Bible, and try to show Gods love, its awesome! They all have their jokes, but at the same time serious questions, and I love it. Im thankful that its my responsibility to share and not save, though I hope so much that they do get saved. TJ needs prayer for a house, and happiness! Which of course the happiness will only come with God. So salvations the main thing :-P.

My cars old, but still running great. Praise God. Its had its problems, but I can get from a to b, and I wouldnt give this car up for anything right now!

Weather was amazing, so the last two days Ive been a lot more active! I LOVE being active :-P. God gave me a healthy body that can run, jump, give punches and take them :-P. Good times boxing Joe Furby!

Im surrounded by great people that I love greatly everywhere. Great people in both churches, great people at home, great friends all around! My Heavenly Father is simply amazing!

Nothing new is really going on though. I need a new air freshener in my car, any ideas??? :-P

2009-02-25T20:00:00.000-08:00

Listening to some good ol' Moody Blues! Got a Christmas present tonight, lol, yes, no lie, it is February 25, and I now have my last Christmas present. And it was worth the wait. I recieved another piece to my Rudolph collection, and Yukon Cornelius is welcomed to the family :-P. Ah the little things in life, lol. God is good, and He blesses me greatly, I definitely dont deserve it. But I am thankful.

Heard from an oooolllllldddd friend. Well, I suppose shes not old :-P, but I havent talked to her in forever! So that was cool. Shes actually a friends x from New Hampshire. Shes pretty cool, and she was so excited because her new bf remembered that it was their seventh month anniversary. See, it is the little things, lol.

Church was pretty sweet! My dad talked a little to much :-P, but its all good!

Yeah, basically life is pretty swell :-P I hope it is for you as well!

2009-02-13T18:34:00.000-08:00

Ive come to the conclusion that being tired is a terrible thing. For some reason being tired leaves me feeling empty. Which, by no means am I empty. I have the amazing Holy Spirit in me :-). Tis a sweet deal, I know :-P.

Work is pretty sweet though, two christian temps have now joined. Phil, my good friend, pretty much a brother, lol. And Ashley, she has a heart for God and young people. The others are still pretty much very worldly. Very much in need of God, and His love.

My friend Michael is getting married in Georgia tomorrow to an awesome young lady! He received a great blessing this morning as he got to work. His desk was filled with gifts from his coworkers. He had no idea, and humbly accepted them. Hes definitely nervous, but in a good way. He describes it as waiting for Christmas, not knowing whats going to happen. lol, He loves God, and I know for sure his wife and him will live as one, serving their Father.

Im definitely sad that there is no Bible study on Tuesday!!! I wish there was, but Dan is in Florida. I mean, who in the world leaves the cold for some sunshine and warmth!!! *Sigh* lol, I guess I will forgive him :-P.

Well Aimee, Ill be honest, I miss you. I hope all is well. Im praying for you and your bosses! Just think, if they get saved, God works in their lives. They start showing love, they stop screaming, they encourage instead! That would be so awesome! Than your coworkers see the change in them, and they wonder what it is, and there begins the revolution of Sunnyview!!! "All things are possible through Him who strengthens us!" -NKBV :-P

yep, I believe thats all for now, Im tired, lol.

2009-02-05T18:05:00.000-08:00

Pressure

When the pressures screaming out your name,
squeezing you, relentlessly, no care, and no shame!

Your walls, they just cave in, one down...
now two, there goes the third, finally the fourth.

You feel so hopeless as the dust burns your eyes.
Blood shot, and dry, till the flood gate opens.

You cry and you cry, and you reach out...
but your arms, they don't reach anyone, you are alone.

You cant carry on any longer, and than it gets worse!
You watch the same thing happen to a loved one!

You hear their cries, meshing with your own.
You fear for them, and want them to have joy.

Your hopeless, their hopeless,
Lord why does this happen?

Brother dont you dare let those legs collapse!
You stand strong, you know your on the rock!

Dive into the Word, you can be refreshed!
Brother I love you, and you deserve the best!

Joseph you press on, with that amazing heart of yours,
Joseph theres a shepherd, He'll guide you to the end.

Be patient, and let your life song play on,
the devastation of your tune ending, Joe, I will not have it!

You are loved my brother, by oh so many,
great plans God has for a soul such as yours!

I could not imagine having a greater younger brother. The life he lives is a life of love for others. Hes so worn down by school, the stress gets to him. Today he wanted to say goodbye. I cant imagine him doing it! I have a lot of friends that are in so much pain as well. So this poem goes out to Joe and my hurting friends. Actually to anyone who struggles greatly with depression or just stress and sadness. We do have a shepherd that loves us, no matter what we've done. He can carry you, and get you back on your feet in a place of great joy. You just need to humbly accept it, and let Him get you there. Im so sorry for whatever is causing the pain! YOU ARE LOVED AND NOT TRULY ALONE!!!!!!! Please please please dont end it, God wants to use YOU!!!

2009-02-02T14:32:00.000-08:00

Today was a rough beginning. I woke up tired and with a soar throat. I get up and get ready for work, and go out to the car. It wasn't to cold so that was definitely a praise! I was low on gas, definitely did not have enough to get to work, but there's a gas station on the way that I had planned to go to. And sure enough I made it, pulled up to pump two, swiped my card, and got denied. Frustrated, and realizing that I'm going to be late for work, I go into the store hoping it was just a fluke. Swiped it at the cash register, and I was still denied. Saturday morning, I had tried to pay a credit card bill, so I set it up to make the payment. But my computers old and acts up, and thats excactly what it did. So I refreshed the page, and went to see if it posted the payment. It did not, the site said if posted Saturday before three it will show up the same day. It didnt (I checked later Saturday and Sunday to). So I figured, oh well, Im not gonna mess with it, Ill make the payment next week. I need gas and stuff anyways. It wasnt posted Sunday, and it decided to post Monday. It took the money from my bank account, but hadnt added it to my card yet. Because I thought that it fluked, I thought I had enough to buy my friend a birthday present. So I did, and now Im overdrafted again! I honestly started to cry, all I could hear is my dad yelling, and the feeling that Im a failure. But I listened to Michael W. Smith's old cd. And its so encouraging. I love the song "Ill lead you home." God will provide, He always does.

I got to remember to stay focused, God is my Father, He is my King, and if I try to seek Him first with all that I have, all that I am, than I am not a failure. I may be poor :-P but He will meet my needs. I do need to be more careful. It just seems like no matter how hard I try, something happens and blind sides me, bringing me back into the whole. Oh well, Ill get back up and try again until I get it right.

2009-02-01T19:27:00.000-08:00

I have come to the conclusion that the biggest babies are found on a football field. I watched the Superbowl and seen fights breaking out for apparently no reasons! And sadly, one of them had a cross on his arm with the word peace. That glorifies God eh? Though with that aside I have to say it was one of the best superbowls Ive ever seen. I was rooting for the Cardinals, and they lost by 4 points. It was so intense from the second quarter on, heart pounding situations, screaming after every play whether it was me or my friends who routed for the Champions! It was an all around good time.

Im starting to feel sick, please pray that it wont get to bad. I cant afford to miss any days of work. But I cant complain, one thing Gods blessed me with, was good health. Its very rare that I do get sick.

Now Im off to bed so that I can hopefully wake up on time tomorrow, Have a good one!

2009-01-24T06:23:00.000-08:00

My car now officially has amazing heat!!! WOOT!!! lol

2009-01-14T15:24:00.000-08:00

I received my first battle wound today at work. Nothing major, however it is the biggest blister Ive ever had. Wanna see?!?!?!

Isnt she a beaut' :-P. We were pulling up the floor, and they were stubborn. I was definitely grateful for the bottle of oarnge splash that I had on hand. May be the only reason I did not faint today, forizzle :-P. sorry, lol, anywho. Despite the tiredness, lol, I love my job, and Im glad that God has given it to me. It is truly a blessing. Waking up is not so bad :-P. That hour difference is HUGE!!!

On another note, Ill leave you with a doodle, if I can...

Now we must play a little game!!! What is wrong with this doodle, its actually something quite major!!!!

I hope you are doing very well! Have a good one!

2009-01-12T03:48:00.000-08:00

This is the day that the Lord hath made, I will rejoice and be glad in it! This is the day, this is the day that the Lord hath made! (that was an awesome old hymn).

2009-01-05T20:22:00.000-08:00

Pastor has been doing a series on heroes. How today's heroes are not good heroes. How we tend to be disappointed. He made a point in saying, maybe that's because our criteria or standards are wrong. When you think about it, theres not very many heroes today. The true heroes you'll never hear about in the news. You'll never really see them on tv, at least not for who they are! Last Sunday he challenged us to be a heroe! If we as the body of Christ stand together, and stand tall, sooooo much can be done for Him! So much change for the better can take place. We can give our young people heroes again! True heroes, that should they follow, their lives wont end in drugs, and other sins. God can bring them hope through us! This world is dark, but with God in us, we can drastically light it up. Not on our strength, never on ours! But leaning on Him, thats when victories are won. We need to pray For one another, AND With one another! Lets take on the world in His name! With Him we can not fall, unless He calls us home. May we be like Job, he's my heroe. God did give Satan permission to wreck his world. But Job was able to stand knowing he lived for God, he lived right. And he may not have understood why it was happening. He was honestly questioning God, but he never lost his respect for God. He still knew that God was his only salvation. He lost so much, but in the end he stood stronger than ever! God is ours, and the worlds salvation. They need to see it!

2009-01-02T06:19:00.000-08:00

Alright, I'm new at this whole picture thing, but this one is
for Aimee :-P. I was asked awhile ago to put pictures up, but I had no camera. For some reason my phone decided to work again, and without further ado, this is Christmas at the Leggs!

Starting from the top floor of the house, we have a birds eye view of the Christmas village (formerly the site for our 16-17' tree).

As you can see, the cat decided to reap havoc in the village. There is a massive mound of snow that juts into the sky. This is simply our not so well done attempt at hiding the wall in the back :-P.

This is the first site that you would see when entering our house. My mom puts a lot of time into this. Our railings are decorated with garland, lights, bows, and bells!

We have here one of our manger scenes around a Thomas Kinkaid Bible, opened up to the Christmas story.

Every stair is filled with our little Christmas Carolers! This year we welcomed Elvis, he is an Elvis impersonator that sings on the very first step. Hes styling with his cool shades and guitar! :-P Definitely one of my favorites!

Here are our stockings, they are aligned by age including my brother in law, and my little niece!!! And yes, even our cat and dog gets a stocking full of goodies! Santa didn't have the heart to give Jazz coal :-P.

This is our village from below. Every year my dad does the village. This year he added to it a sea section. He was very proud. At night the lighthouse lights up and the light actually rotates, it's pretty neat!

These little guys requested to be the ones to say good bye :-P. They love to tell the story of Jesus, and wish you a Merry Christmas! Well, now its New Years, and I hope yours is a wonderful one! God will be with you 365 days a year. Every hour, every minute, every second, how awesome is that!

2008-12-28T15:38:00.000-08:00

I'm not quite sure how to add a video. This song is one that I think greatly shows an amazing love for God. Its been a great blessing, and I hope it will be for you as well!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMi-Ok38aaY

This is another song, it shows a lot about how I feel sometimes. I walked a way for a long time, and now trying to come back, its very hard. But God is good, and He can always get us back to where we need to be. One part of the song simply goes "I tried so hard." But its not about what we can do, its about what he can do in us. I hope you enjoy this song as well! This is Red-Pieces.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x3U6BCUQqG8

This will be my final one, at least for this post. I love music, lol, so bare with me. This is by one of my favorite christian bands, Kutless! They have harder rock, and they have very soft rock. I like it all, lol, but this one is soft! It talks about how God will never leave us. He hears us, He loves us, He really is our shepherd! Praise God for the love that He so freely gives. When we have done so much to give Him reason not to! Hes so good, if you didnt listen to the others, please listen to this one! I think you will enjoy it!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_38RfYrFYA&feature=related

Thank you sooooo much Lord, for all that you do, for music, for mercy! I am not worthy!

2008-12-20T11:39:00.000-08:00

I was watching Jericho, and it came to a point in the show, that broke me to tears. I hate so much the pain that people have to go through. Afterwards I started to pray for thoughs who have been or are going through what was portrayed in the show. I thought about how the unsaved people, they literally have no where to go when things like this come up. They have themselves so they have to put so much weight on their shoulders. I keep wanting to say thats not fair, but I know it is. Its more than fair. Because of sin, we've screwed everything up. Than I remembered, last year in seminary. We watched a movie called Charlie. Its a mormon movie. And these people, they cry out to who they think is God, with all their heart. But because their decieved, and they dont know the true God, He doesnt hear them. How in the world do you deal with that. But than I thought, Im sure for every one of our tears, God has 2 or more, probably way more. He does love them, but He's perfectly just! In this world of pain and darkness, He saved us, and wants us to be the light, the salt. Its so hard to be the light and the salt.

"When the oceans rise, and thunders roar, I will soar with you above the storm."

2008-12-20T07:19:00.000-08:00

"Wooo-oooo-hooooo, Wooo-oooo-hooooo, Why do you build me up, butter cup baby just to let me down, let me down..." cough-cough, sorry, its a good song, I had to sing :-P. Anyways, God is good! My car should probably have been towed yesterday for parking in an unplowed parking lot, but it wasnt. Going for a walk around midnight to get my car, I realised that night time, isnt so dark in the winter. The moonlight must reflect the snow and light everything up, lol. It was actually very pretty and nice out last night.
When I got to my car, there was people having good times doing donuts. Unfortunately I couldnt join them, lol, I dont know how. But thats ok, it was cool watching them for a couple minutes while I cleaned off my car.
On another note, Jericho is an amazing show! :-P

2008-12-19T06:32:00.000-08:00

Im going to pick up Joeman from school. As for now, I'm listening to some sweet Relient K! And I'm hopefully going to enjoy the snow today :-P.

2008-12-17T11:09:00.001-08:00

Ladies and gentleman, boys and girrrrllllss of alll ages!!! The snow has Landed!!!!!!!

2008-12-15T12:57:00.001-08:00

last night I was up talking to a good friend till a little after 1 about a problem. Let me tell you God blesses good fellowship. If it wasnt for last night, today would have been horrible, and I would have missed out on a lot of blessings. Though I definitely probably missed some when I first got up. I got a phone call around 7:30 in the morning, that I was not happy about. I did not want to be out of bed at that time. I ignored it in anger, and they called back around 8. In my mind I wanted to scream out, Im tired, leave me a lone. Accidentaly picking up however, that would have been bad. So I reluctantly said hello. Turns out the guy that Ive been helping out, and hes been very graciously paying me to help me out in my down time right now. Anyways, he needed help. I said it might be a little while, and we hung up, not on a good note. Bad me! I got there, and he didnt give me any problems, I was not happy to see this guy Jay. Bad me again! Im supposed to love everyone, but I cant stand to be around this guy. Hes never ever positive, always picking on his helper hard core. I hate that kinda stuff. Im not talking innocent joking around, I mean he really tears into this guy! So my attitude still sucked. But I was given a challenge, to make sure that from the beginning, I would be talking to God. Just telling Him everything, little to big. So when I woke up, I was already in the all to common battle. Me vs. New me, lol. After I started to work, I through on some Christian music, and tried to listen to the lyrics for some encouragement. Which I greatly enjoy! I praise God alllll lthe time for music!!!! If it wasnt for music, Id lose it. Than I noticed that it was a beautiful day out, and I enjoyed work. I enjoyed the people. My attitude changed, it was awesome! If it weren't for God, I would be in the dumps.

Gods creation is amazing, the trees, the leaves, the snow, the ice, the thunder, the lightning, the birds, everything, Its all a masterpiece. Praise Him for He is good! Understatement of the year
:-P

2008-12-14T20:04:00.000-08:00

Well, today I was very glad to come home around 3 ish and see that our power was finally back on. I'm not gonna lie, I enjoyed the time without power. Got to kick my moms butt in Golf (a card game). Not really though, we played to fifty, you want the lowest score (hense the name). In the last round I was 1 point away from hitting 50, and my mom was like 6. We ended up tying at 60 to 60, and I beat her in over time. HOO-RA!!! :-P. Got to chill with my brother, listening to music while freezing. But for once I didnt care about being cold, lol. Got a lot of reading in to, so that was good... and odd... I never read.

On another note, we definitely got our Christmas tree, its small this year :-(. But its still nice, lol. I really cant complain.

2008-12-10T19:53:00.000-08:00

Tonight was awesome!!!! I was just talking with people on Aim when my facebook popped. lol. It was a guy from Highschool whos had a lot of hard times lately. Hes not saved. He wants to meet up somewhere and we can talk about God and the Bible. We chatted for over an hour, and I get the blessing hopefully of sharing the gospel!!!! How God uses a fool like me, I dont know. Im nervous cause Im not good at talking. But I have to suck it up, lol, Im so excited though!!! His names Jason, please pray for him as well as for me. God is good!!! No doubt!!!!

On another note, Psalms 61,62,63 are all amazing!!!!

2008-12-09T13:22:00.000-08:00

My brother came back from school today, with him he had a sheet on how to survive a fall down a street grating... I hope that is not a sign! That would be terrible, lol. At the end it says "Look for a ladder." Yeah... If I just fell through a grate, and didnt snap my leg, I dont think I would casually just look for a ladder. I would be to shaken up, and wondering what in the world just happened, lol. But anyway :-P.

God is good, but there is a family that just lost their home due to a fire :-(. Thats not so good. I hope to get an oppurtunity to somehow show them Gods love. Ya never know, amazing things might happen :-).

I was glad to get more snow, even if it was another, well... just a bit more than a dusting. But multiple dustings add up, and hopefully I can hit my first mountain soon :-P. I will try not to make ice on my way down for the not as cool skiers :-P. Just joking, lol.

yep, thats about it. I hope the Bible study goes well tonight. Sigh, I wont be able to be there.

I think thats it for now.

2008-12-05T20:27:00.000-08:00

Im thinking everybody should listen to Don Francisco :-) It's encouraging Bible stories in a song, and it makes you want to praise God more!!!

2008-12-04T16:28:00.000-08:00

Today was the first day in a long time that I actually took a nap! I must be getting old, lol. Any-who, I have to go to bed early so I can wake up at 6 and head back to the house. We get some sweet lumber tomorrow. The demolition I believe is done, and soon we can start to build.

After that, movie night, so I am definitely psyched, and ready for that. But sad cause I wont be there Tuesday. I'm going to a friends Christmas concert to show support, and enjoy some sweet tunes :-P.

2008-12-02T20:03:00.000-08:00

well, with no job coming in, Im out of gas money and cant pay the car insurance. So Im gonna lose my car. Thats the sigh, lol. The wonderful thing is that God is still so very good! He promises to provide, and thats what He'll do. Im listening to country music, and greatly enjoying it while eating cheddar chex mix, and Hawaian punch! Good stuff. Looking forward to Friday, should be a good time with the Bible study group :-). This week has been crazy, I havent even been home, lol, though its not a bad crazy. Yesterday I hung out with my friends Chris and Phil, and today I worked on Chris's Father's house, lol. It was cold, but we still managed to get a lot done. Anywho, thats about all thats going on here.

poem

2008-11-24T16:09:00.000-08:00

All around is a luscious green.
You gaze upon a brick walkway,
lined with cherry blossom trees.
You look out and see the weeping willow,
blissfully blowing in the wind.

A little one story house,
made of beautiful pine,
surrounded by a variety of horses.
Your Clydesdale, the gentle giant,
the hard worker, God's wonder.

Your American Quarter Horse;
May be a bit smaller,
but hes slow to anger,
and I love him so much.
God's tool of peace in hard times.

Your gorgeous Hanoverian Horse.
Hes our entertainer,
playful as can be.
He runs and leaps for freedom,
and we round him up again.

You watch the sun set,
as they all stand tall.
You gaze upon your Fathers masterpiece,
this, this is a wonderful dream.
What an awesome opportunity.

Notes:

I would love to live on a little ranch house. Horses are definitely one of Gods many many wonders. They have a way of bringing peace and joy as you soar on their back. I haven't been able to in a long while. But I still remember my horse Mexico! When I ended it with such opportunity, I'm talking about the amazing ministry that this setting could have. Maybe some day this can be my way of life. Maybe not, either way God is good!

2008-11-23T19:38:00.000-08:00

Tonight was definitely rough, but it was rough in a good way. We had a good dinner, with good friends, and good fellowship, with good praise, it was all amazing! My Pastor got up to speak and introduce Gary Vosberg who had just gone to China on a missions trip. Pastor spoke about how our country is in a bad spot, and the economy is hurting, and there is a lot of scared people. He talked about how we need to be the light. And he said, we need not worry though, cause we are founded on the solid rock! It was awesome, but than I imagined what it would be like, to be founded in the sand, on the oceans shore, where the waves can so easily rough up your world. And your left with no defenses, no ground to stand on, life threatened, and with no hope. I started to tear up. Than he introduced Gary, who got up to speak. And he was awesome, funny, and encouraging! But one thing that he talked about that hit me really hard, was through all the trials that he went through, he kept pushing through. And he got to the hotel, and he said to God, tired and warn out. "Lord, Im doing my best." he said God replied "I know you!"

Afterwards we had the Lords supper, and I had to leave. It was the first time that I had to leave. That hurt, and still does. I had to leave because I knew I wasnt right with God. I could not look God in the eyes, and say "Lord, Im doing my best." Ive definitely been so selfish with my time, doing my own thing, not being a light to the world! Please pray for me, that I would take a major stand, that I would stop my nonsense, and get in the fight. Next time, I want to be able to take a seat, and partake of the Lord's supper. I dont ever want to have to walk out again!

2008-11-19T05:04:00.000-08:00

This one will be a quickie, the i pod is working again, lol. I was pretty excited :-P. Thanks for praying.

P.S

I just watched Elf last night for the first time this year, definitely love that movie!!! :-P

2008-11-17T16:25:00.000-08:00

the first thing I wanna do is praise God, Hes awesome. I just finished up a three day job with a construction company. I believe that it was God providing my needs, cause it came at just the perfect time. Secondly I just had a sweet interview with Trustco bank. I was actually forced to use my brain, and I loved it! :-P. And finally, I have a job oppurtunity that could start instantly. I'm not sure what Id be doing, but I do know its another type of construction job. So thats cool.
Now I have a prayer request. It may sound stupid, but its actually for my friends ipod. Im glad that God cares even for the small things as this. I just borrowed it to see if I could get it working. She was having trouble because it wont register that its in the computer. So I wanted to mess around on my computer, so I could fix it, find out whats wrong, and than fix her computer at home to be able to recognize the problem............now the ipods messed up!!! If by any chance someone reads this, lol, dont ever let me borrow your ipod, should you have one :-P. I do feel kinda bad, I dont even think I did anything, but it happened in my possesion. Sigh. Prayer for the ipods health would be apreciated :-P.

2008-11-15T07:49:00.000-08:00

Well, this is my first post, what in the world do I post about? Well, I had gone to a play last night, and got lost on the way home. My phil phil has failed me!!!! I guess you get what you pay for :-P, LOL, just kidding, he knows I love him. OH yeah, the play, ok *smacks myself in the forehead* focus focus focus! Sorry in advance, Im tired, lol. It was a play on pirates, it was definitely funny, I think they did a really good job. It was worth the money, and the 44 minute drive, no doubto! I got to see old friends again, two of which were in the play. Listened to sweet music, and sang a long with Phil, and my sweet bro-ha joe man. OH YEAH!!!!! On the way home I seen two deer and got to watch them run off into the woods, it was AWESOME!!! I LOVE seeing wild animals, they are amazing! Sweet country roads. Than I got home and talked until 2 in the morning about random crap. Yep, exciting for me, maybe not so much for you. But I hope that somehow there was some kind of amusement found :-P. I hope whoever reads this has a good one, and enjoys a sweet weekend!